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Symbolism & Meaning
The suit of wands is linked to the element of fire. A direct correlation to fire means that wands are symbolic of passion, creativity, ambition and action. Wands are very powerful and have the ability to transform our wants and desires into reality. This can happen quickly so we need to make sure that our intentions are truly representative of what we actually want deep down.
In the Two of Wands card we can see a man looking into the distance. He is holding onto a wand with one hand and in the other, he holds a globe. The second wand is anchored to a wall behind him, of what looks like a castle, showing a desire to have the security of his property. He already has everything he needs but is it enough? He knows that there is a whole world out there for him and he craves the adventure and the unknown.
How the Two of Wands is relevant to me
This is my favourite card I have pulled so far in this journey. This card is me summed up perfectly and the thoughts in my head cannot wait to get down on paper! Last night James asked us both what we actually intend to do with our future. We explained that we don’t know but that it is ok to dream about these things. At the time we were discussing campervans and whether to buy one converted or to buy a van and convert ourselves.
The two of wands is an invitation to look towards the future and make plans. The element of fire attached to this suit can indicate a desire to make this happen quickly but there is a warning not to be too hasty.
At the moment, there is a possibility that I could receive a sum of money in compensation for my accident. I have no idea if liability will be accepted, how much it is likely to be and when this will all happen. However, it is very hard not to imagine the possibilities and opportunities that this may bring.
Playing devils advocate, just say it was a sum of money equal to a deposit on a property. Freya wants to head off to university so we “could” buy a small flat in preparation for James eventually moving out. A 2 bedroom property would suffice. On the other hand, that would mean being stuck in Chelmsford. Everyone who knows me knows that I have moved around a lot. We have moved to various parts of the country as a family but even before that, I was never in one place for longer than 2 years.
I have owned two properties, one in Cornwall many years ago and one in Canada.
Was I happy, fulfilled and secure? Absolutely not.
Did having a mortgage make me feel like I had “cracked it” in terms of what we are conditioned to think we need? Nope.
I know in my heart that if we were to buy a property in Chelmsford that yes, we would have more security for when we hit retirement age but at what cost? We have been here for 3 years and in my head I am done. I am ready to move on. Our children’s educational plans mean that we are here for the next 4 years at least, obviously but what about after that?
In my head we have these potential and totally hypothetical options. They are listed as most sensible down to what I truly want to do!
- deposit for a 2 bedroom flat
- deposit for a property in a cheaper part of the country as a buy to let
- buy a campervan
- buy a narrowboat
- buy a narrowboat & a campervan
- dream world option and most unlikely: deposit for a 2 bedroom property, buy a narrowboat & a campervan. Pay off mortgage over the next 10 years, rent out property and travel the canals and Europe.
Obviously, the bottom option is not going to happen. My dilemma is that I desperately want to buy a narrowboat. I have been researching this for many years now to the point where my kids think I am part of some strange narrowboat cult. You can get residential moorings so we could have the security of a registered address and therefore access to facilities we may need as we get older. We would also have the option to travel and work from the boat. Hence the desire of mine to build a floating craft and/or tarot based business.
My only worry about buying a flat is that if we do this, we may never save up enough to buy a narrowboat. Life will roll on the way it inevitably does and the dream will be pushed further and further into the distance.
A buy to let is another option but the deposit would need to be pretty hefty in order for the rent to cover the mortgage. It would also need to leave enough each month to cover any potential issues with the property. All in all, I think this would be a very stressful process.
The reality is, we are likely going to have to choose between one or the other. The security of a property but being stuck in one place or the adventure and serenity of narrowboat life.
It could be many months before we know how much money we have but in the meantime, I will continue to dream of a free and adventurous future.
Which one will we choose? Don’t worry, you will know as soon as we do!