Upright Keywords: Introspection, apathy, contemplation
Symbolism & Meaning
A figure sits under a tree seemingly uninterested in the three cups visible in front of them. You may be feeling conflicted over certain aspects of your life but if you are willing to look in a different direction, you would see that there is another cup just out of reach. This could be the piece of the puzzle you feel is missing.
How The Four of Cups is Relevant to Me
Interestingly when I went to bed last night I felt a bit off. I had been fairly restless throughout the afternoon and went to bed early, out of boredom moreso than feeling tired. I was then woken at about 2am by cats fighting outside. I couldn’t sleep so ended up randomly scrolling on my phone until I felt drowsiness take over.
I also woke up feeling compelled to work with a new deck, hence The Phantomwise Tarot being introduced today. I definitely feel off and this card popping up has made me process why that is. In all honesty, I think it is because I am very close to launching my silver jewellery business. I have crippling self confidence issues and they are starting to come into play here. The thing is, deep down I know that this could be something I can build into a legitimate business. I don’t know why I always do this to myself but there is defintely a pattern that I can see over the years. Now though, I don’t have the option of just getting another job to replace my crafty endeavours and appease my need to contribute fnancially. I can’t physically work but I need to do something. More importantly, I WANT to do something that not only feeds my creative soul but also makes money.
I like to think that the three cups hold my doubts and anxieties but the fourth cup is full of joy and will guide me where I need to go. I do need those three cups though, they may feel limiting sometimes but they also drive me. The fourth cup is the overriding factor and is what helps me to overcome these emotions.
Today though I will try and get myself in a better head space. I can’t do any silver making because I am waiting for supplies. Maybe I just need to give myself a break and remember that I am in this for the long game.